Wednesday, October 3, 2018


Turns out my weekly recaps did not become a thing as there's seldom enough time for such matters. However, I figured I'd write a post about more significant milestones. Such milestone happened recently as I more-or-less completed practicing my first Rachmaninoff piece and moved forward. The piece in question is Fragments (Posth.). A lovely little piece that I also recorded and might re-record after my piano gets tuned.

Disclaimer: This was recorded a couple of weeks prior to it being ready, so it is not yet completely polished, but I think still one of my better accomplishments as it is a challenging piece that introduces some pretty wide textures and some polyrhythms amid some of the faster parts of it. I might re-record it as a video with the tuned piano just for the "historical" value of it, but I do need to refresh it a bit before doing so.

Anyway, it was one of my bigger milestones as playing anything by Rachmaninoff was one of my main goals when starting out. Everything feels possible now.

I have since started practicing some Chopin; namely Nocturne Op. 15 No. 1 and the Raindrop prelude (Op. 28 No. 15); Both of which I hope to record when the time comes. Currently it looks like the time for the Raindrop prelude will likely arrive way earlier as the Nocturne feels significantly more challenging; especially with the con fuoco- part in the middle. I'm also practicing a couple of more playful pieces, namely Debussy's Golliwog's cakewalk and Prokofiev's Attrape Qui Peut.

I am also looking forward to taking a stab at Rachmaninoff's Elegie Op. 3 No. 1 which is, by far, more challenging than the previous one, but also one of my favorite pieces; perhaps ever. I don't know if it is possible to get to a satisfactory level of mastery on it at this time (or well... when I start in probably a few months time), but people tend to be addicted to the feeling of anticipation over gratification (this is why clickbaits work so well), so I will use this additional burst of motivation and funnel that energy into the Chopin and Debussy pieces which, I should add, are in itself immensely motivating "real" pieces that I want to play. In order to give an example of the kind of motivation I am talking about, I am currently practicing somewhere between 1-2 hours on weekdays and 2-5 hours during weekends, probably averaging around three and a half hours per day. This would be a good rate to reach Malcolm Gladwell's 10,000 hour expert limit in something a bit over 11 years. If I am ever to actually reach that level of proficiency, it will most likely not happen in the next 20 years but it is fun to do the math.

Having graduated to pieces that I actually enjoy listening, I feel like there's some hope for me yet. I have, however, been widely neglecting all composing efforts and almost all improvisation work, which I feel I need to make a conscious effort to include in my practice regimen as the understanding would also, besides the obvious technical benefits, shorten the effort for memorizing pieces. I spend a fair amount of time on watching videos and video lectures regarding music theory, but there's no real substitute for actually getting down to trying to apply it by either analysis or composing.

Anyway, thought that'd make for a good little update on things going on. I don't know if I will be writing more than two updates per year, but I feel like I want to so... maybe.

Sunday, January 21, 2018

Week 3: Starting new pieces

Week 3 was the first active piano practice week of 2018. I feel I got in most of the hours I wanted, aside from Thursday. I also started working on some new material this week; then again, I realize I have not mentioned the liszt of things I'm currently working on so here goes.
  • Beethoven - Moonlight Sonata - 1st movement
  • Beethoven - Moonlight Sonata - 2nd movement
  • Czerny Op. 299 No. 1
  • Czerny Op. 299 No. 2
  • Liszt - Sancta Dorothea
  • Schubert - Moment Musicaux 3
  • Schumann - Knecht Ruprecht
As new pieces / studies, I began working on
  • Prokofiev - Tarantelle
  • Czerny Op. 299 No. 3


  I personally feel that I'm probably ready to move on from most of the pieces in the 1st bracket (although the studies I will probably keep as warm up for an extended period of time); however, I trust the judgement of my teacher in this regard and am quite likely to end up doing some polishing on quite a few of them.

  I feel like I am getting the basic antics and most of the fingering down for Tarantelle after my initial few sessions of working on it. I'm still mostly doing hands separate on that, but it is quite a fun one to play.

  Here's a short breakdown of practice time per day (does not include lessons):

Realizations and insights

    This entry is more of a log entry for me to track my progress; I will attempt to have more insights on what and where on further updates. As a big takeaway from this week, I would especially note the realization and implication of alternative fingering for the Liszt piece. I did not realize it before as it was not explicitly stated, but there is a relatively standard case of centering on the second page that I did not construe as such initially. These kind of things happen semi-automatically in a lot of pieces, especially over time when one polishes pieces, but the fact that you can consciously think about where you should be for a certain grouping at what time, it allows you to save practice time for more complicated problems.
  The specific scenario was an octave long four note arpeggiation that I could awkwardly reach and was attempting to do so. But simply by dividing it into two groups and moving hand to those positions and to next transition after, the passage became easier and less awkward (one could almost say natural) to play with the left hand; essentially removing the last technically challenging bit from the piece all together. Obviously there are more things to polish there, but all the pieces are there albeit a little crooked.

I also found a new pianist I like Vitaly Pisarenko, never heard of him before, but he plays through some Rachmaninoff quite well and all sorts of Romantic era pieces. Here's a lovely piece of expressive ravel to conclude this week's post.

Monday, January 8, 2018

Musical Moments

I have decided to reactivate myself in the writing department. I, however, also decided to concentrate on blogging about my Piano Journey and keeping other stuff to a minimum. Everyone knows how 2017 was for the world and it needs no recapitulating. However, the undeniable beauty of the arts, the satisfactory feeling of accomplishment, progressively growing skill set and sharing knowledge make for a good basis for a more uplifting blogging experience.
  I feel like I have progressed in leaps to pieces that I wouldn't have thought possible a year ago (and thensome) when I was recording Dolly is Sick. I am now (my teacher might disagree) at the brink of reaching the level I am comfortable recording for pieces such as Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata's first two movements, Schubert's Moment Musicaux 3 and Knecht Ruprecht by Schumann. Obviously there has been a bunch of other pieces I've breezed through over the year, but I want to establish - for my own record keeping - a base level defined by the pieces I am able to play to a satisfactory degree. I am still quite a way away from Rachmaninoff but solidly progressing towards it.
  Besides advancing in technical skills, I am also digesting an immense amount of theory knowledge coupled with additional realizations about technique thanks to my teacher and a few YouTubers (most notably Dr. John Mortensen). I am also living exciting times in my piano "career" for yet undisclosed reasons.
  Anyway, as future goes, I will actually be posting my practice data, insights, realizations, links to piano performances and educational videos at a rate of how striking I find either. I will be tagging all these posts with a piano tag so if it does not interest you, one could also filter those out - assuming it is possible to exclude tags.

Happy New Year, 2018!

Monday, April 3, 2017

The Last Romantic

This post is something I wanted to write for a while since before I even started this blog. I do not really know what this turns to be now that I indulge in writing it, but the composer/pianist I am focusing on is perhaps the greatest source of inspiration for me from the musical world and his music bears a great amount of personal significance for me. It sounds a bit cliché to say that some particular piece of music cured depression and it would be an overstatement to say that here too, but there is something special about music that resonates with how you feel and makes you feel a sense of connection. Do not get me wrong, I have listened to music all my life - different kinds of music too. The evolution of my taste has gone from techno to power metal to romantic era classical, always avoiding hip hop/rap, neither of which I have never found tremendously stimulating.

  When it comes to "classic" classical music, everyone has heard of Beethoven and Mozart. From the Romantic Era, most people recognize names such as Tchaikovsky and Liszt, even if they can't quite put their finger on "that tune" that they know from them. However, unarguably one of the great ones was the Russian-born Sergei Rachmaninoff, also sometimes referred to as the Last Romantic.

  Rachmaninoff had his fair share of bad fortune and plummeted into depression after the failure of his first symphony. During this depression that lasted for 3 years, through which he got with professional help, he composed virtually nothing. After recovery, he composed two short pieces Morceau de fantasie and Fughetta in F major. I mention this only, so that I have a "donkey's bridge" (Finns might get this) to a piece from him that I absolutely love and that also turned out to be one of the most popular ones among the collection that was later titled Morceau de fantasie. That piece, of course, is the first piece I aspire to play from him one day (in around 10 to 30 years), is the prelude in C-sharp minor.

  It is a rather manic but beautiful piece, that'll hopefully be within the range I will one day be able to play. The first big composition he did after his depression was one that he actually dedicated to his therapist, the 2nd Piano Concerto. It is a stunningly beautiful masterpiece and unarguably one of the most famous pieces from Rachmaninoff. I will probably do some analysis on it at some point when my theoretical understanding is at the level of being able to even theoretically comprehend what is going on there. For now, I am restricted to enjoying it's magic-like beauty. The following interpretation is among the most watched ones on YouTube and no wonder. I'm not sure whether it is my favorite one, but it is up there for sure. There are quite a few contenders (Denis Matsuev's is also great as his style of industrial might fits many parts of this piece like a charm).

  As one can probably guess, this piece is rather taxing to play for the sheer endurance required, not to mention the technical capabilities of the pianist. Rachmaninoff did compose for instruments other than piano as well, but as he himself was a capable pianist (capable of playing everything he composed which is actually nothing easy, sadly), most of his work is revolved around one or more pianos. He was also a big admirer of Tchaikovsky (who luckily also composed pieces that humans can play), and Tchaikovsky's death has been said to affect his work - as did his compositions, especially in his earlier work.

  His magnum opus though (guess there's some room for argument there) is the magnificent Piano Concerto 3. This is the piece that really made me fall in love with his music as it is in it's beauty and complexity so intellectually and emotionally satisfying that I do not think listening to it will ever get old. I know the story it tells is different for anyone listening to it, but I am sure everyone can find their own story in this piece. It is probably his hardest composition to play, even if some of his etudes are right up there with it. I chose Martha Argerich's interpretation here even though the sound quality is not the best of the ones out there, it is still probably my favorite one. Martha is undoubtedly one of the greatest pianists of this century (and last) and a great figure to follow as well. She has said that she feels lonely on stage with the piano and I would think that's one of the reasons why she has also done a lot of four hands and two piano performances. But that's a topic for another day.

The movie Shine is also at least partially about this piece. It is based on a true story about David Helfgott, an Australian pianist who performed the piece (and won an award for it). The story itself is a story of a man coming from harsh circumstances of a deeply conservative family that (in the movie) lead to a mental breakdown of sorts. I do not know how tightly the plot of the movie is tied to the real Helfgott's life, but it was at least inspired by it. Geoffrey Rush earned an Oscar for the role and I would recommend the movie if this sort of drama floats your boat.

  I guess this post became a bit of a showcase than an overview of some important parts of his autobiography rather than an explanation and exploration of my personal relationship with his music. I picked pieces that are probably more approachable to first timers, as for myself, I have noticed that I am deviating towards his shorter works of late (most of them for solo piano). Hoping to at least be able to play some of his compositions at a later date is what keeps me motivated and whether this'll ever come to be remains to be seen, but I've always been a fan of setting high goals whether you eventually reach them or not. In this spammy torrent of YouTube videos, I would like to add one more - some "lighter" listening perhaps. Nikolai Lugansky's interpretations of Rachmaninoff's work are amazing and I feel he "gets it". So spare a moment.

While I wish I would have discovered his music earlier to get motivated earlier, I do feel lucky. Finding a sort of purposeful drive for self-expression in a world where hatred has become the predominant motivator, albeit absent purpose, feels profound... it feels special.

Saturday, December 31, 2016

Happy new year!

Ohhh 2016, how dreaded thou art. And yet, thy demise draws near. Whilst we are still to see most of the repercussions of all the crap that went down, it is needless to say that on a global scale, the end of this semi-arbitrary time interval is more than welcome. Hopefully, it will mentally signify the end of the compulsory desire to make the worst decisions possible!
That being said, on an individualistic level - that level to which some people manage to, ahh so enviably, restrict their worries - my year was nothing short of amazing and that is thanks to the amazing people I have gotten to spend it with. <3 I also developed a nearly unhealthy passion to piano music, moved to another country, started a company and got a new title at my job, just to mention a few of the highlights!
I will not make resolutions for 2017 as I feel like stress has the way to sneak into our lives without inviting it with artificially made secret promises, but on the same note I hope that I, and people in general, will (or would start to) adamantly exercise critical thinking in their decision making. That is the only way to keep this sinking ship afloat!
So 2016... Thank you and jog on! Happy new year, everyone!

Wednesday, November 23, 2016

The End Times

Even though I have been venting bout this issue for a while now in my social media outlets and to anyone who has been in a conversation with me, I thought it best to write some thoughts down in ze blawg. If you feel that the recent events have been vented about enough in the media, read no further.
  Indeed, it turns out that hatred, intolerance, misogynism and bigotry are the hip way to go nowadays, regardless of country, region or continent. I recently read an article in The Huffington Post which suggested that the recent events are showing signs of a cyclic behavior of mankind's self-destruction and it is hard to disagree with such statements, even if the scenario provided here is not something that would come to be. I do not want to rant about president-elect Trump here as it is being done enough elsewhere. Both candidates have their flaws (which probably is a large reason for this result) as do both parties. The fact that Republicans won pretty much everything else on top of the presidency is what is unnerving me. I am not an American but a country that has a significant impact on the economy, world peace and a lot of other things is now ran by a backwards conservative party lead by a misogynistic clown who would make the Joker jealous - might literally set the country back decades in terms of basic human rights (among other things) not to mention these effects rippling through to the rest of the world. It is depressing, or as one fine president-elect once said "Sad."
  It would be unfair to say that everyone who voted for him, voted for him for the reasons I listed above though. As a matter of fact, many probably voted him despite those qualities which should be equally concerning to people. There are quite a few ways to describe the colossal mistakes that were made that eventually lead to this outcome (which are rather well covered by people smarter than me in this regard).

  That being said, the global scale of populist victories should also be alarming to people, yet the vast majority (as was proven in the dark year of 2016 upon which the historians will look and laugh or cry (or both), assuming everyone's not dead yet) appears to be acting on emotion over rational thought. This has always been a problem of course, but it has been quite a while since it had the whole world go this crazy. By most metrics, conditions are better than before but people are increasingly unhappy. Economy's not doing super great but cutting down expenses at the cost of privileges just will not do and everything was better before and it is time FOR CHANGE!! It is rather tragicomic that the needed change generates resistance that manifests in frustration that manifests in people wanting change in the system that is trying to apply the change the people need. Since, for the most part, this is unfounded - it is an easy source for populists to tap into as it is easy to promise change without any concrete promises on what that means. Coated with nostalgia of how things were better before as human mind tends to alleviate the pain from negative memories over time - which is a sort of built-in survival mechanism of the human brain - and we have an unstoppable force driven by no meaningful meaning and an infinite amount of power originating from this seemingly paradoxical wheel of frustration.
  It is a difficult nut to crack obviously. Humans are hardwired to care about their near vicinity and loved ones and we are not properly equipped to handle all the trouble in the world. I have never felt like this about foreign politics before and I can't say I like the feeling. One of the troublesome aspects of solving this issue is that people on the average seem (to me) to be concerned with the bigger picture only when the bigger picture is directly affecting them in a negative manner. Oftentimes, this is when the fecal matter has already collided with the blade of the fan and they are just getting some of the splash.

Supposedly though, not all is lost yet and we should simply see what is going to happen and keep up the good fight in the hope of the good guys winning in real life as they often do in movies. Having recovered from the initial shock, I at least have some hope now. Maybe.

Friday, October 28, 2016

Sick Dolls, Good Times

  As promised (threatened?), this one will be a more music oriented blog post. One of the first things when arriving here was to find a new piano teacher as I feel that this is the only way for me to achieve my maximum potential as a "pianist" (I use that word quite loosely in the current state of affairs). I want to be able to play at least some of the songs I find more impressive and relate to in their melancholic desolation.
  I feel like I am learning a lot about music during these lessons and this is a huge source of inspiration for me. I do not mean simply in the means of technique for the piano but getting a grasp of some of the ideas behind the sheet of music, such as multiple melodic lines emerging from something played with only one hand, accented notes (and how to play them or at least some ideas to it), articulation, phrases and so forth. I know I am just scratching the surface here, but having read about some theory before now gets practical context and the "ohh, that's what it means!" is a very common and rewarding feeling during these lessons. It also helps that my teacher appears to be classically aligned, so there are a lot of insights to be gained for me.
  Whilst rehearsing scales, chords and arpeggios can be tedious at times, I have also been putting work into Tchaikovsky's "The Sick Doll" from the Album for the Young (totally makes me feel younger as well!). The greatest thing about this piece, besides it being a composition of one of the greats of the late Romantic Era, is the fact that despite its relatively simple notation, it can teach a lot about depth in how you choose to play it. My first rendition of it did not sound so bad back then (also it will never be published), but having recorded it and listened to it a few weeks later, the difference is staggering and indeed I was butchering the piece beyond all measurements. With the hopes of one day being able to play something by Rachmaninoff (yet that is a topic for another post, as is my obsession with his work), being able to play something by the more considerate romantic composers is a great way to maintain motivation. By "more considerate" I am referring to composers such as Schumann and Tchaikovsky who were kind enough to compose pieces that can be played with less than 8 years of vigorous piano study and practice.
  The Sick Doll (Op. 39 No. 7) is a sad yet beautiful piece. I would argue that it is too sad for dolls, being children's toys, are supposed to get better. My impression is that this one does not though, since the next piece on the same album is called The Doll's Funeral (No. 8) which has some remarkable resemblance to the funeral march we all know too well. This is also the first piece I publish that I played myself as I am not tremendously ashamed of how this particular recording turned out. It was also the first recording with my new recording hardware so it makes it somewhat more special in a very minor way.



Turns out my weekly recaps did not become a thing as there's seldom enough time for such matters. However, I figured I'd write a pos...